So I'm going to try and start writing a blog - to write down my thoughts, my finds and my experiences. I'm going to have to back log lots as there is so much i would like to record but definitely going to start doing a weekly blog or random blogs when i feel something.
I will at some time incorporate my gap year travels and experience but that will be when i have time.
So I am a student at Nottingham Trent University studying Fashion Communication and Promotion - I know when people see the word fashion they think stupid but it is not like that at all it is a business course that incorporates - Advertising, marketing, PR, branding just with fashion so my case studies involve Paul Smith, Visual Merchandising and why things are designed and placed where they are instead of learning about BT and the Lehman brothers.
So i suppose I'm going to have to tell you a little bit about me and some personal stuff which will be very hard to write down as not many people know. So i am a 19year old girl and last year had the best and worst year of my life. A little update last year i was on my gap year and did a ski season in Meribel and went travelling around the world.
Good parts of course were those but i also got back with my long term boyfriend who broke up with me while i was on my season as he found it to hard his name is Nick and he is 22 - he is gorgeous, kind and i couldn't have got through these last few months without him - i am really grateful for that - he is the love of my life.
So number one of the bad things - while i was on my season i had an accident which involved me falling down the stairs no i was not drunk - i was actually working - through that I have compressed my spin and slightly broken my back - which is not good still get pains, the clicks are awful and the lumps of scare tissue in my back are sooooo attractive :) so that is shit but you can't do much about it, i just live on.
things come in 3s so be warned....
2nd thing which has happened which could be a result from me falling down the stairs was damaging something internally - i was getting very bad problem in my stomach/boule area - i couldn't lie on my front, i would get shooting pains every now and again - something which is nice to know is that i still don't no what it was as even after many test they have not clarified what it is - i even had an enema - which is not something you want when you are 19 :(
Now the big thing - which will shock you bearing in mind all this stuff was all happening at the same time and i was getting results all around the same time of bad news/ i don't know new tests - i found out everything 2days before starting my first year at university - somewhere you are meant to begin your life, be confident, social and enjoying life - well lets just say it is tiring keeping a front all the time - doctors, pain, embarrassment.
So 3rd mishap lets just say - while travelling i discovered one of my front teeth seemed a little wobbly - didn't quiet understand - i had it though for a while as even when i had my brace this one tooth would move from the day till the night. So like any of us concerned i went to my dentist as soon as i got back from travelling and her response was - it has to come out - WHAT!!!!! That tooth and the 2nd one along - if i don't take it out it will come out on its own - we will mould it and then within a few weeks or so you can go and get implants - the first omg - they are my front teeth - I'm 19 why is this happening - i have always had amazing teeth - 2 seconds in the chair and yep fine see you in 6 months :(
Thankfully though the implant people called me within days as, as i was so young and a rare case they wanted me to be Happy and rebuild my confidence as there was no real explanation for why these teeth had got wobbly. Then sitting in the chair while they checked all my other teeth before i could be fitted for the implants i get a sudden mmmmmm and a list of questions.
I'm afraid to say - but i can not diagnose this as it is really rare and i am not qualified to diagnose this but i think you are aggressive localised peridontitise - it is a very rare disease that 1% get and there are only 5 specialist in the country who treat it. OH MY GOD!!!!
what would be your response - me i cry...... basically means that i might need more teeth out, i have to go to a specialist hospital and see an expert they will say the next stage which i found out was antibiotics to see if they can control the disease and then from there you and me will both find out next Friday when i get the results - if it is good it means - that the disease is under control and i can have implants as at the moment all have have is a plate i have to take out every night - which is not the most attractive or high self esteem thing you want to have. Or the bad news is i will have to have surgery all under my gums - then i won't be able to have anything done for another 6month and then who knows???
So 3 things back, insides and teeth all at once - and has proved difficult - my self esteem is pretty shot - even though Nick has been amazing, i feel ugly, depressed but only on my own - in front of people i appear fine, bubbly and social - only 2 people know at uni - i don't want people to as then in someways even though it is, it becomes a reality. It is hard sometimes juggling everything as i play 2 sports at uni main one being lacrosse, i have a social life and work really hard - never miss a lecture or seminar. In my last week of uni before i broke up for Xmas i had a week from hell. I was not allowed to eat any food for 3 days starting from the Sunday, Monday i had a presentation - i then drove home after it - which take 2 1/2hrs for the night for an appointment on Tuesday where i had my enema, then Wednesday i had a tooth appointment in Birmingham when i had a prescription given to me for drugs to take over Christmas then drove up to Nottingham, did my lecture and seminar in the morning before driving back down to Telford for an MRI scan on my back then driving back up to Nottingham to go to my lecture in the morning on Friday and hand in my portfolio before going back home for the Christmas holidays that afternoon and getting stuck in 3hrs of traffic - what a week.
So yer this is quiet a lot of my life - I'm sorry if i have bored you.
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